maybe.just maybe.

so, i was just walking up my stairs, and i'm pretty sure i had an epiphany.

i stopped midway up...and it all just sort of hit me at once.

completely out of the blue.

"robyn," (i said to myself) "you've been looking at this the wrong way, all along..."

i've got to preface this cerebral vomit i'm about to spew, with this; i think this little light[bulb] of mine, may have been instigated by a text i received earlier from a friend<--link...the "thought for today," as she often sends me, this one read:

"The greater the obstacle, the more glory in overcoming it."-Moliere. Often times than not, we see obstacles as a bad thing, instead of what it really is...a source of motivation.'

so i said, "robyn, you've been looking at this the wrong way, all along...all along, you've equated being single, with being lonely, and thus, you've viewed it in an at least partially, negative light. when in reality, you should be viewing it as a good thing...because, maybe, just maybe you're single for a [GOOD] reason. Maybe, because you're an independent woman [and i don't mean that in a cliche', new age-"i am woman, hear me roar" kind of way...]and you do not allow the fact that you may not always have accompaniment, to stop you from going places, and from doing things...maybe there is a woman, or a young girl that you know, that may look up to that, and you. Maybe she sees you, and knows that it's OKAY to be on your own, and that despite that, it's still completely possible to enjoy, and explore life. Maybe you are an inspiration. Or maybe there's a man, or young guy, that sees you and respects the fact that you are who you are, and can do for yourself, by yourself...maybe he secretly hopes to one day find someone just like you. Maybe, as Andre 3000 once put it, maybe, you are the prototype<--link. Or, or...maybe, you're single for an even BETTER reason. Maybe, God has something so great in store for you [career-wise] that He knows a relationship/family would only serve as a hinderance...an impedance even, to that great thing. Maybe, He wants you to be ready, and have the capacity to focus all of your attention on this one great thing...or, many great things.

...robyn, you're not a materialistic individual...but, maybe you have at times harbored some feelings of inferiority, because you're still driving the same car that you've been driving for the past 6 years, while friends and everyone around you, (some even younger than you)are driving new model, luxury cars, fresh off the lot. but, maybe, robyn...you're driving the car that you need to drive, because you have to learn to fully appreciate that car, before God blesses you with the one you want to drive. He's not saying no, He's just saying not right NOW. accept it. embrace it. and know, that a car serves a purpose, it is meant to be a mode of transportation, and is not an indication that you're any less/more successful than the next person. you'll have your day, it is written...and therefore, it is already yours, you just have to be patient and wait for it."

i can definitely do that...patience is a virtue that i captured a long time ago.

now--maybe a month from now, a week from now, or even an hour from now, i may again be questioning failed relationships, determining and redetermining self worth, and measuring success, but in this moment, this moment right here, right now, maybe, just maybe, i finally understand the imperfect perfection, that constitutes all that is me, and all that is my life...

that's all for now, but stay tuned, after these messages, i'll be riiiight back...

rm'wah.

question

....does anyone actually read this blog? if so, drop a comment and let me know, because otherwise, i think i'm gonna be deadin' this blog.

on this episode of cribs...

so, i realize that not everyone likes to read...and with that in mind, tonight, i'll skip the babble-ation (<---that's what you call use of creative license)and allow you to indulge in "all the pretty pictures". i'll do this on occassion (when i'm feeling too lazy to write anything).

they say that your living area says a lot about who you are, what do you think mine says about me?

THE 'SWAG' PAD

the 'chillin' room (because living rooms are overrated)

the room by which my mastication is manifested :)

el bano numero uno stairway to heaven

el bano numero dos

..and, the place where i should rest my head, but i sleep on the couch instead, cuz i'm weird like that..

and that's it for the most part. i have a second bedroom, but i don't really have anything in there just yet, still trying to figure out exactly what i'm going to do with it.

oh yeah, fun fact...lemme tell you how i did my wall art (except for Marilyn).

1. go online and find images you think are friggin' awesome

2. save them to a usb drive

3. go to kinkos and print them hoes out

4. go to walmart and get some trendy $2 frames

5. bingo. bango. hammer. nail. booyakah.

in the end, it should look a lil' somethin' like this:

the rat pack, beyonce, louis armstrong

elvis, stevie wonder, pharrell williams (aka my future baby daddy)

lauryn hill

tina turner, pink

aaliyah (r.i.p)

the greatest rapper alive

john mayer

bob marley

billie holiday

welp, that concludes this episode of cribs...ya'll ain't got to go home, butcha gotta get the aych e double hockey sticks outta here!

tata now. bye bye then.

Little Miss Busy Body

..so, i've been feeling extra productive as of late. which is a good thing, because i spent so much time being unproductive. anyhoo, my weekend was pretty dope. exhausting, but, definitely dope.

friday after work, and...the mini monsoon we had here in huntsville, i went to pick up the cake for the shower i was throwing for my friend on saturday. after that and other shower errands, i didn't get home until around 8 or 9pm. i spent the rest of the evening preparing for the following day's event...well, that, and on the phone chatting with my friend candice until about 3am. i think i finally drifted off to sleep around 330am.

saturday morning, i woke up and started getting ready for the day ahead of me. i think i left my house around 9am and headed back to the cake shop...there was a minor mishap with the cake-- it fell (not as in, i dropped it, but i guess the way that they had it stacked, it just, well, fell).

a mess, right? yeah, so i dropped it off for them to repair, then went on to where the shower was to be held (at her folks' house). spent a couple of hours setting up, and then headed back out at 11 for the cake....was in sort of a time crunch, left at 11, the cake place is all the way on the other side of town, and the shower was to start at noon. ugh. luckily, they were able to fix the cake and i got back just in time for the shower to begin. i think everything turned out just perfectly. she was happy so that made me happy! it was though, my first, and last shower of any sort, lol. ever. i'll attend them, but i'm not throwing any more, lol. anyways, see the link below to a slideshow i created to see how it turned out:

http://www.rockyou.com/show_my_gallery.php?source=ppsl&instanceid=135993794

after clean up and everything, i didn't get home until around 4pm. i relaxed for a bit, and then hit the road headed to nashville for josh hoge, tony lucca, and curtis peoples at 12th & porter. it was...well, effin awesome! tony lucca opened the show. i had heard of him, but never really heard his music. let me just say, he rawked my friggin' socks off. let me give you a little sample...here's some video of him i captured singing his song "melancholy collar" (my favorite song of his by the way):

naturally, i had to purchase both his albums (one of which, he signed for me)...and then we had to get our kodak moment on.

the lead guitar guy for curtis peoples, me, and tony lucca...we're gonna start a new band, it's called Reverse Oreo, lol.

up next was curtis peoples, i'm not a big fan of his, but his lead guitar (pictured above with the pigtails) was killing it, he was very entertaining to watch...i find i always end up with my eyes glued to the person that plays/sings with the most passion, and he was it.

curtis peoples
..and the crew...

and last, but not least, mr.hoge. he pretty much performed his ass off, it was great! of course, i expect nothing less than the best from the guy. he performed all of my faves, including Shadow, and try...and of course, ain't no sunshine...except it was an extended edition, which I LOVE. check out the pix and vids that i captured, below:

Josh Hoge & Trey Lockerbie-Try

Josh Hoge-Ain't No Sunshine

the drive back was terribly horrendous, i'm sure i had about thirty, 3-second doze-offs. horrid. i got home around 2am. i immediately crashed out, and didn't wake up again until about 430pm on sunday. needless to say, i didn't have much of an Easter, but i did get plenty of rest.

so, that was my weekend. can't wait to see what next weekend has in store....i'll catch up with you all sometime later this week, maybe i'll have something to talk about, we'll see.

oh yeah, before i go, i have a little footage from the show i went to thursday night at 3rd & lindsley, here goes:

ernie halter-whisper

btw, check my new youtube page, dedicated to music http://www.youtube.com/robynemmmm

and while you're at it, follow me on twitter http://twitter.com/robyn_em

lastly, thinking of phasing out all prior email addresses and using robyn.emmm@gmail.com, so, add it.

k...tata for now.

later gators!